Failing is passing the test

Ok So I took my PCCN exam today, I was very nervous, and I felt mostly prepared. I drove up to pike creek shopping center and took my exam in the H & R Block office. I have been studying for this exam for months! (really months!) I came in sat down did the 125 questions just hoping to get that 70%.... I think because I have consumed the last couple months with studying I just expected to pass because I really put the effort in. And I know that if I did not pass that I could take it again and that would be that. And I know that I am smart.

But when I looked at my paper and saw, "We regret to..." OH man the tears welled up. I almost got it! so close. And there are other people I know that are so smart and really just fantastic nurses that have not passed, it just was such a shock to fail. So I titled my post as "Failing is passing the test" because it is easy to pass! (well sort of) but to fail and not give up is SO HARD! I love learning and I really have learned a lot of new things by studying. But I wanted the credentials! (for my hard work) but maybe there are other important scenarios for me to learn to truly excel as a nurse, and maybe it will come down to saving just one more life. And this I am ok with. As hard as it is to fail, it is harder to keep your head up and move forward!! Thanks to many of my friends and my amazing husband, I am encouraged and strengthened, OH I must not forget, and is even more important to me is the fact that God takes care of me no matter what, he is so good. I have always said to myself I want to learn to be content in any circumstance, and with each circumstance I realize the thing that I am content with is the fact that Jesus is there and is amazing, and that is really what matters, because in him I am ok.

On the bright side I am gonna take a break from studying, and just relax and enjoy this beautiful time of year. So yes this is a touchy subject for me, and I am sensitive to it but it will work out in the end.