We (us nurses) always ask family members, "Are you eating?" "are you taking care of yourself?" "you know you can't take care of others if you can't take care of yourself"
Am I taking care?
Of what? others, yes. myself, I think so.
As a nurse there are many challenges, being the "middle man" between family and doctors, neither ones seem very happy to deal with the other.
I got some news today that my dad is not doing so hot, which is not the picturing he has been painting me. He has lost about 30lbs in about 4 or 5 months. He has crohns disease or ulcerative collitis, which is an inflammation of your large intestine, which prevents water absorption, cause lots of diarrhea, he goes to the bathroom about 16 to 20 times a day (that is were the weight loss comes from) this is an autoimmune disease so there is not a cure, there are several things you can do but not much has worked for him. I knew he was doing better but he says he is all right.
So I got a call from my stepmother Lynn and she basically said he looks horrible, like he is dying, she keeps telling him to go to a specialist but he is a stubborn one. Lynn was calling me to tell him to go to a specialist. you have to know she is a strong woman and has really never asked me for much of anything so the impact of what she did hit me like a ton of bricks, and of course Paul is at work so I had no shoulder to cry on, just my sleeves. so I went to the best help and just started reading my bible and was reading in Colossians 1:15 to 23 and I read Psalms 84. Both talk about the character of God and in Psalsms84:11 "For the Lord God is a sun and shield; the Lord bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless."
God is good and that can hold the tears from my eyes and allow me not to worry. I have peace. and hopefully the strength to call him later to tell him to go to a specialist with out crying! haha
ok so the meaning of the title to me is, someone asked me what "RN" stood for and they said "real nurse" haha so cute and funny, no it stands for Registered Nurse, to clear up any confusion. but I also meant it to mean that I am Real. and also a nurse. Yep thanks for reading my blog. Hope your day is challenging in a way that brings you closer to God, and perhaps closer to others.
peace to you.
love this, Beth.
ReplyDeletethis is encouraging to me.
and I am so sorry about your dad doing badly; I will pray he gets better.
Hey Jess! Way to be my first commenter! YAY! I am glad I can encourage you. What is so crazy to me (which you totally can relate) is that I thought he was doing pretty well, with some flare ups, but overall ok, but when my step mom told me, and how concerned she is for him, and the fact that the whole town is calling her asking her if he is dying? that is pretty intense I feel almost fooled. my dad just didn't tell the whole picture. and i haven't seen him for a year so i can't be the one to tell him what to do. it is just crazy. and I don't want my dad to feel like we are going behind his back because me and lynn are telling each other what he says... oh well. prayers are appreciated and he has a doctors appointment today, so I will post the news. thanks again.
ReplyDeleteThis time clock is def wrong... it is actually 1 pm hmm
ReplyDeleteBeth, I didn't know about your dad, so sorry to hear he's been so sick. I know Crohns can be difficult to treat. We will be praying for him, and Lynn, too.
ReplyDeleteThanks Karen! I didn't know how bad it really was, please do keep him in your prayers. it is so hard to be so far away sometimes!
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