change

So it has been a little while since I have blogged.
I just made some cheesecake.YUM. I work this weekend, I am kinda sad cause I love dressing up! and maybe I still will. The youth group might have a little party I can crash. who knows. Today was such a brilliant day! The colors of the leaves have been most spectacular. I need to take some good fall pics before the leaves all fall off.

So work has been pretty crazy lately. We are having some management changes, and by some I mean probably all... (thats about 4 people) I have appreciated our current manager, she has really "loved" us, she really has tried to bring some good changes, there are things I don't like about her but I won't post them here. I really hope this change is good for her, she needs a place where all she needs to do is encourage and be kind, she is very good at that. I want some serious change, and I know it is gonna happen but I ope it is GOOD change. I seriously can't take much more of this chaos called work lately. I know I am not meant to be on 3D forever but I didn't think I would feel like leaving so soon! I love my coworkers SO much. And i really enjoy the patient population and how intense and critical they can be, I don't like how many of them I have to take care of not mention being "split" or not having any techs. I know I keep talking about work, but something has seriously to change. It is like another family of mine. I have been trying to pray for the future of our floor. There are some new nurses on our floor and THEY ARE GREAT! They must have been hand selected cause they fir right in! Love it! They have a lot to learn, but that always comes with time.

Well I should go soon, I am gonna go have dinner with a friend who moved away and is back to visit!

And I have looked for boots again, still no such luck. there is a pair out there for me!

Peace to you.

Stresssss

Work has been so busy the past 2 days, almost rediculous. That is probably why I have a cold going on. it is brewing. not quite as warm and delicious as coffee, and no I do not want cream and sugar with it. ugh.

I do not like stress.

I am watching Dancing with the Stars, it makes me want to dance. yep.

Booot hunt part 2

So I went to Burlington Coat Factory to search for cute boots....Whoa that place is crazy, so chaotic. I found a pair I thought was super cute but I could not find the sizes.... I searched and searched, boxes.... I thought it was pretty funny how messy they were, I started talking to this girl she was really nice she said even the people that work there have no clue where to look! so funny! Needles to say I did not yet find my boots.... oh well.

It is Friday night and I am at home. I am making pizza, trying a new way. Whole wheat flour, lets hope it is good cause I am making 2 of them haha.

My mom is up to visit from Virginia. She has lost so much weight I had to take a double look at her when she came in my house.

I bought 2 new hats! I am wearing one now.

I made my mom buy a hat too, it is pretty cute.

I am really hoping this Pizza turns out well!! (not sure why I  capitolized it haha)

I am listening to The Decemberists. good stuff. yep.

Hummmmus

Such a delicious thing gives such a vicious odor to your breath. Oh well. I love garlic. I try to use it with most meals that I make. YUM. as a matter a fact I am making brown rice with garlic in it. There is Club Club going on. Good times, Good people. It is amazingly chilly outside! and my wood stove is brilliantly warm. (FYI Club Club is essentially a book club haha)

So I worked a double last night, it was hard to stay awake, and it was some different responsibilities. It was a pretty busy assignment that was in! Thankfully it was busy, if not I would have fallen asleep. I give props to those nurses out there who work when no one else wants to. I sure don't want to work then.

I have two very funny cats. Ronnie (Rinaldo) he is a fatty, and a whiner. Henry (with the french pronunciation) is devious, sneaky, and likes my plants too much. They are seriously our "kids" haha. I know that sounds really cheesy but we love them.

Well my rice is done and I shouldn't be too antisocial so I am gonna hang out with them just for a few cause it is chilly on our back porch. Yep.

Back into the swing of things

I wish I was referring to a real swing and I could swing things in it. but really I am starting to study again. I had a great habit and was studying a lot! I took a week off after I didn't pass my PCCN then today was the day to start back up again. It is hard! Partially because the stuff I started with I feel I know pretty well (but it makes up about 38%) so I still am gonna study it. I wanted to clean my kitchen instead of study, that is pretty bad! haha, I prob studied for an hour then Paul came home for lunch and that is when I called it quits. I do work today 3 to 11:30. 

Today is a beautiful day! chilly but wonderful. I attacked my side yard on Monday, it resembled a jungle in the amazon... (I wish haha) no the grass was about to my hips and pretty thick. Paul mows the lawn over there but this was in the garden area, so I pulled out all the grass and pulled up about 3 or 4 weeds that were like 6 ft tall! haha so I planted bulbs, a butterfly bush, some seedum, and mulched about 65%of the area, it looks so much better. I need to plant the rest of the bulbs this week. 

I am thankful for where I am in life, for all I have. For my amazing friends, for my family, for good health. For my amazing husband, who is truly my best friend. For who God is in me, even though I am a slacker. For a house, yard, beautiful weather. I have so much when some people have nothing. I hope that I never hesitate to help someone out, even if it is inconvenient. I love music. 

Work has been interesting lately. I feel good about my job, and the job I do. There are so many frustrating things that truly bother me. so many inconsistancies, whether it be false promises, or things that are unrealistic. I do my best with what is given to me, or even when so much is lacking, like staff, or materials, or even resources. I do really love the majority of people I work with and that is what makes where I work a better place. I can laugh when I should be crying from stress, and I feel that I have help, and encouragement, and just some really fantastic nurses!!! I hope our efforts are seen, because we truly work so very hard. 

Well I have dragged on and avoided studying for another half hour, now to shower and get ready for work. sure hope it is a good night to be working......

rearranged

So on Saturday when I cleaned up a bit, I also rearranged my furniture, I love it.
I often move things about, maybe so I don't forget that they are there, not sure. I loved my new plant rack as well as all my citrus trees I brought inside.

I was doing an experiment, the one where you cut off the top of a pineapple and stick it in water and it will grow roots. I tried it once before and it failed, but this time not so much!! I have rooted it and planted it in soil and hopefully I can keep it alive long enough to grow a pineapple next year!! That would be brilliant!!

It gets pretty darn chilly in my house, I love my wood stove though! and hot beverages to warm my insides up!

So not much is new. Had a great day today, well work was fine and then met Laura and Crystal at Old Navy and went shopping, as well as Joanne's and DSW. Then we ate at Red Robin, so de-lish! So I am on the hunt for some cute boots, I saw several I really liked but didn't want to spend 100 bucks.... I am excited, never had cute boots.... and I also went to Tuesday group which was pretty good! I have a lot of great friends.

ok the end for now.

Slim Apple Picking

Went apple picking today with my friends; Kim and Rachel, which was a lot of fun! Not a lot of apples to choose from! but it was really fun. there is just something about a chill in the air. Apple picking is just awesome, I love taking friends! I am actually missing Keisha pretty bad, cause I love taking her apple picking. ( I love taking her anywhere!)

It is funny how a 3 day weekend can feel not long enough, then other times feel so rested and refreshed.

I am really enjoying this chilly weather!!!! I started a fire in my wood stove today then took a nap by it.
love it.

I was outside on Saturday doing some stuff, like helping Paul clean out our chimney, and adding some soil to some of my potted plants to bring inside for the winter and I got like 8 bug bites in various parts of my extremities... so itchy! I really wasn't out there long for the amount that I received.

The plants I added soil to were citrus trees I am trying to grow, I am so excited at the thought of just one of them doing well! ( I have 6 of them!!) some lemon, lime, and a type of orange. I have to bring them inside because it gets way to cold here for them to live through the year. just a fact that is cool, most citrus trees are self pollinating so you do not have to have 2 different varieties.

I had a great weekend, sad for it to end, but there are some very ill patients that need my to work and need me to enjoy work. Which I do.

Failing is passing the test

Ok So I took my PCCN exam today, I was very nervous, and I felt mostly prepared. I drove up to pike creek shopping center and took my exam in the H & R Block office. I have been studying for this exam for months! (really months!) I came in sat down did the 125 questions just hoping to get that 70%.... I think because I have consumed the last couple months with studying I just expected to pass because I really put the effort in. And I know that if I did not pass that I could take it again and that would be that. And I know that I am smart.

But when I looked at my paper and saw, "We regret to..." OH man the tears welled up. I almost got it! so close. And there are other people I know that are so smart and really just fantastic nurses that have not passed, it just was such a shock to fail. So I titled my post as "Failing is passing the test" because it is easy to pass! (well sort of) but to fail and not give up is SO HARD! I love learning and I really have learned a lot of new things by studying. But I wanted the credentials! (for my hard work) but maybe there are other important scenarios for me to learn to truly excel as a nurse, and maybe it will come down to saving just one more life. And this I am ok with. As hard as it is to fail, it is harder to keep your head up and move forward!! Thanks to many of my friends and my amazing husband, I am encouraged and strengthened, OH I must not forget, and is even more important to me is the fact that God takes care of me no matter what, he is so good. I have always said to myself I want to learn to be content in any circumstance, and with each circumstance I realize the thing that I am content with is the fact that Jesus is there and is amazing, and that is really what matters, because in him I am ok.

On the bright side I am gonna take a break from studying, and just relax and enjoy this beautiful time of year. So yes this is a touchy subject for me, and I am sensitive to it but it will work out in the end.